i really don't like being at the doctors office....

So I had to go in for a blood glucose something something test today....ugh. I had to go to the doctors office at 9am and not eat or drink anything, get blood taken, drink a nasty orange, sugar drink in under 5 min and then sit in the waiting room for 2 hours until they can take my blood AGAIN! Needless to say it sucked. And after all that I have to wait to see if there is something wrong. I am also scheduled for and ultrasound on monday to make sure that everything is good in that area, but i'm really not looking forward to it. I just wish we could have done it all in one day and get it over with.

It was our one year anniversary yesterday, Alex gave me a beautiful emerald pendant and took me shopping. He's such a sweetheart!

Alex has to bring his 'sample' (if you know what i mean) to the hospital tomorrow or thursday to be tested as well. I hope everything is alright, i think he would get pretty depressed if something was wrong in that dept.....

and that's that. I am totally pooped out from all the running around i did today, i'm going to watch law and order and wait for alex to come home from work. BYE!

The last few weeks have been hard. Alex has been away so much and then I got into a small car accident...UGH! Thank goodness for my mother, she is being so supportive right now.

My cycles have been so messed up that I just couldn't stand it anymore. A few days ago I broke down and made an appointment with my doctor for today. I feel much better now that I went, the doctor was very reassuring. So for the next few weeks Alex and I are having some tests done, nothing serious, just blood work and ultrasounds to make sure that nothing is seriously wrong. If everything checks out we are going to continue with our plan to try and conceive naturally and if there is something wrong then we will rethink our plans.

Alex is in Ottawa right now, so I'm going to go watch Law and Order (as usual) and relax, my work week starts tomorrow (blah) and then i will be back to stressing out. I'll update again soon.

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i'm really sad. i don't know why, i am just sad.

if you get a chance go to youtube and look up "Christian the Lion"

wow.

Isn't it amazing that one moment you can be super happy and positive and then next moment you just want to hide in your house forever. I'm bummed out!!!

I want Alex to get home a.s.a.p - I can't handle him being away so much.

Wednesdays FAIL!

p.s - everytime I change the channel/ look up a website or go on facebook all i see are pregnant women and women with small babies...*sigh*

babies are everywhere!

I am starting to get a handle on all this baby stuff. I have two good friends that are pregnant right now and I've figured out the best way to get over the jealousy of it all. The secret is to buy and make them stuff for their kids. Simple as that. The more crochet blankets I make and give away the better I feel. I (stupidly) bought a stroller last year because I was on this shopping binge and I was convinced I would be preggo within a few months and today I just gave it away. I feel great!!! It make my friend feel so happy (she had a nasty hand me down stroller) and in turn I feel amazing about it, and my best friend had her baby shower on Sunday and I gave her a great gift (most of the stuff was hand made). Now all I want to do is knit/ crochet baby stuff and give everything away. There will be tons of baby stuff that I will think is cool when I eventually get pregnant so why am I hoarding tons of shit I can't use for another 10+ months??? (depending on how long this ends up taking us...)

I know our days is coming, I just feel good about it. I have a doctors appointment on August 11th just to make sure that I am in good health and that nothing odd is going on with all of my baby-making parts. Then on the same day I have an appointment to finish my half sleeve, luck cat tattoo on my left arm. I think August 11th will be a good day!

Also, I started a new job yesterday and I love it, all the girls I work with are awesome and even though Alex is away in Ottawa until Friday (and i'm kinda lonely) I am still feeling pretty good about everything.

Here is to thinking positivley! CHEERS!